monolog 8

call me ridiculous.
but i do find pleasure in pretty depressing songs.
it lifted up my mood just like that.
really.
like, just now,
i felt really depressed that i could bang my head
on the walls just to make all the pains, all the memories,
everything to go away.
to make me numb.
but then,
when i listen to the songs,
somehow, weirdly, my mood was lifted.
like the depression was never there before.
cheers.
(ノ￣ー￣)ノ