monolog 11

this love that we shared
is one of the most amazing thing i've ever had
in my life.

no lies.

because, from this love,
i've learnt a lot,
so much i've learnt that i dont think
all the words in the dictionaries
can even describe it.

but also
this love..
suffocates me
killing me
tearing me apart

dont get me wrong
i still love you guys..
but i just
i just need some time to myself

to remind me
what do we have in the first place
that makes me feels like im home
whenever im with you guys...

im sorry for keeping a distance
i know everyone is  hurting
but i cant help it...
im sorry...

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